So, it’s been a while since I said we were returning to Bikram Yoga.
We went to one class which I felt absolutely fine in, as if I’d never left.
Soon after however, I caught a cold/cough and spent a week recovering. I haven’t been sick like that in over a year.
Then just as I was recovering from that, my grandma passed away so I spent a week hiding away dealing with my grief.
I thought that was enough and I was better.
Committed to what I said about returning to Bikram yoga, I just went for my first class in 2-3 weeks on Tuesday. This time, I couldn’t hack it. I sat down a lot. I felt emotional, my back was tight, I felt dizzy.
After class Tony just said “You looked weak.”
We had to go grocery shopping afterwards and I didn’t have the energy. My back wouldn’t let up, it was like muscles tightening in my back more and more but stopping just before a cramp.
I started to feel anxious and the tension crept up to my neck causing a long and intense aching like my head was in a vice. I wished right there and then I could just curl up into a ball and go to sleep but I had to walk home carrying heavy groceries.
Tony carried most of it but there was too much for him to be able to carry it all himself. For the first time in over 10 years, I really wished we had a car.
After we got home, I just lay down and didn’t want to do anything. I felt like I had my period and even started bleeding just like I had it.
My eyes were bloodshot. I was not in a good way.
Before I went to bed I noticed a red mark on my hand. It looked like an insect bite. I ignored it and by the time I woke up, I had about 3 more insect bites on my palm and a couple on the back of my hand. They were really itchy so naturally, I scratched them and the ones on my palm blew up into a full blown blistery rash that both hurt and itched horribly, by the end of the day.
Of course I consulted Dr Google about it. It seems I’ve developed some kind of eczema caused by stress (and humid conditions) or I’m having an allergic reaction to whatever insect has bitten me. If it’s neither of those, I’ve contracted yet another disgusting skin disease from a sweaty mat.
As for the bleeding after exercise, it can be caused by stress. Sometimes the stress on the body due to the intensity of the exercise can change the hormone balance, causing the body to act like it’s time to menstruate. It’s either that or, it’s something a woman goes through before she gets to menopause (bleed between periods).
I have noticed however, bleeding only happens after exercise and the amount of bleeding correlates with how spent I feel after the exercise. No bleeding happened during the time I didn’t exercise at all so it’s more likely caused by physical stress rather than menopausal.
Great. (Read in the most sarcastic way you can hear it.)
Either way, it’s scary and all been triggered with Bikram and all those symptoms listed are a sign that my immune system is not coping well with stress.
It’s not like I pushed myself that much. I sat out half of almost every standing posture after eagle but my body is telling me that even that was way too much for it to deal with!
I said I was going back to Bikram because I was in need of pain but this is not what I meant.
The good news? My plan worked. I went back to Bikram to help me change my diet. If I hurt enough, I’d learn to eat better.
Well, in the last 2 days we’ve eaten much better (no chips or cookies)and are more determined and motivated than ever to continue it.
All in order to help me recover quickly from these horrible ailments and so Tony doesn’t feel so “toxic” anymore.
Side note – we are still eating out occasionally and put no restrictions on what we eat when we eat out.
My bleeding stopped the next day. The eczema is still there. It’s only been a day so I’ll give it a week or so, to clear completely.
Since illness is a symptom of immune deficiency and we haven’t had kefir for a couple of months, I’ve started us drinking that again too. Improved gut health through increased probiotics means an improved immune system and improved immunity means quick recovery and less sickness!
As for increasing the number of Bikram classes I attend, for now, for this body, it’s a complete no go.
Until my body starts dealing with physical stress a bit better and my immune system has improved, I am going to Bikram minimally. I think once a week, if that, will do just fine and even then, unless I’m feeling super strong, I’ll probably spend most of my time sitting.
That will be interesting! I have never walked out of a Bikram class and for the most part, until I got injured (pain in my butt), I never sat out any postures either. Now I’m sitting out quite a bit. To me this is already taking it easy.
It seems, I’m still learning what “take it easy” means. So many times I think I’m taking it easy, that I’m pretty much lazing about and then I get sick, I get injured or I post exercise bleed and get eczema – all indications of what my body really thinks of my version of taking it easy.
Besides, I achieved my purpose of going back, which was to eat better. If I’m doing that, there’s no point overdoing it just ’cause.
As the teachers always say, you only do as much as you can, with the body that you have, that day. My body right now, is saying “No way Jose! Not today. I do not want to play!”
If only I knew how to listen to it before it has to scream like this. So much changes inside, you never see it until these symptoms come up and usually by then, it’s been festering for a while. I wonder how you recognise it before it does this because that would be way more useful.
Isn’t it interesting though, that none of these symptoms came up until I did Bikram again?! I guess that room is a pressure test, a great way to find your breaking point and bring symptoms up to the surface so you can resolve the issues!!
Well, we obviously could feel something was off, otherwise we wouldn’t have felt the need to go back.
The good thing is, at least I’ve started the process for change and healing now. As with many healing crises, it always feels worse before it gets better.
I’m really hoping now that this is the worst and soon it will get better. For now, I think it’s time to learn how to chill out even more and monitor my symptoms for improvement.