Blog for week ending April 05 2018.
I’ve read some things on addiction this week and have opened my mind to understanding that addictions aren’t just of substances but can be of anything in life (shopping, eating, gambling, sex etc).
Basically, anything that you do incessantly because it satisfies a deep craving or gives temporary relief (usually from pain). Addictions are only a problem when they have negative consequences associated with them.
On reflecting on my activities during the day and night, there are 3 things that would fall into the addiction category:
1. Browsing Facebook feed / the web
2. Playing “Township”
3. Watching series / movies
There are positives to each of those activities but the negative consequences far outweigh those positives. That negative is time spent. Time that I will never get back. Time that I cannot spend doing something else. Time is worth more than money. If you lose money, you can get it back but once time has passed, it’s gone.
The other negative is sleep. Most of the time when I go to bed at 3am, it’s because I’m doing one of the above. The bags under my eyes exist and I’m tired from lack of sleep every morning because of one of those 3 things. When I think about it like that, those 3 things are so not worth it!
All of it is screen time and so my eyes remain focused on one distance for extended periods of time and I wonder why my eyesight isn’t as good as it used to be or why my eyes are dry!! Methinks it’s time to dramatically reduce my screen time and curb those addictions!
Paris & Rome
The boys have been happy and quite surprisingly well behaved, especially after last week’s adventures with multiple chewed up cords.
Tony spent 4 full days at home over the Easter long weekend and this influenced the boys’ behaviour. They’re both cautious around Tony. It’s because Tones is heavy footed and tends to move loudly and suddenly. For example, he sits very still when reading or working. He can do this for hours at a time but then when he moves to get up, he’ll jerk the seat back, drop the phone, move things around the table and then thud the floor with his foot while attempting to put his slippers on. The sudden kerfuffle scares both bunnies.
The difference is, Rome will stop to listen and watch out for anything peculiar before deciding to run, Paris will just bolt straight into his hutch, even if he’s in the middle of eating or toileting.
During the 4 day long weekend, after multiple times bolting back into his hutch, Paris eventually spent all day every day in there, hardly ever coming out. He even bit Tony when Tones attempted to move his pellets closer to him. We reckon he was having an issue with Tony cleaning around his hutch and play area as he’s used to only me doing that.
As soon as Tuesday hit and Tones went back to work, Paris was out and about, running, jumping and binkying, as usual again.
His current “thing to do today” (he’s been doing it every day for the last 3 days) is to pull out the newspaper from his litter tray. It’s a miracle. The newspaper sits underneath some absorbent wood pulp and hay which he’s supposed to wee and poo on. He actually manages to pull out the newspaper without spilling any wood pulp or hay outside of the litter tray. Unbelievable. I don’t know how he does it and I don’t know why he does it but “Look Ma! No hands!”
Home, House and Completions
I finally got my act together and sorted out my hair. I usually grow my hair to really long and then chop it to a bob and then wait until it grows really long again before I go for another hair cut.
Usually I just have the hairdresser sweep it up off the floor and throw it into the bin but this time my hairdresser suggested I cut it off in a ponytail and send it off to The Princess Trust so they could make a little wig using it. I thought this was a much better use of hair and so I’ve now finally sent it off. It’s been sitting in an envelope, on the table for months! Hopefully they can do something with it.
I also collected a bag of unwanted, unworn, no longer used items of clothing from the cupboard and dropped them off to the clothes charity bin.
Another completion which is quite a relief is that I sent a very late birthday card. I’m talking 10+ YEARS late. I bought the card 10 years ago and kept forgetting to send it. Well it’s done now! I never have to “remember” to do it, ever again!
I packed and sent a thank you gift – one that I really should have sent back in January but hey ho. This is what completions are about. Just getting stuff that’s been hanging over your head for ages, finally completed.
Lastly, I’m reactivating my kefir grains. Someone at the yoga studio asked for some so I promised her I’d give her active ones instead of the stored ones we had in the fridge. It’s going to take a few cycles and I’m up to the 2nd one but it’s getting there.
With those things sorted and wanting to surprise Tony with a treat, I made a cinnamon bun cake using almond flour.
Given the name, I thought it would taste like Cinnabon which I know he likes, but it didn’t. Still, Tony really liked it and asked if I could make it again.
It seems I’m becoming OK with this baking thing. I always think that it’s not good enough and Tony is just very encouraging or forgiving of me. Being very critical of my results, I haven’t yet found the confidence to let others beyond Tony, tell me what they think.
Tones and Joy
Considering addictions are things we do to find relief from pain, I pondered on my reasons for movie watching, game playing and Facebook browsing and it’s pretty simple. I’m procrastinating and therefore using screen time and looking like I’m doing work, to avoid actually doing work. It’s as simple as that.
I would rather do any of those 3 things than clean the bunny hutch and vacuum every nook and cranny that has bunny fur, do the finance admin, clean the toilet or clear the clutter and list things for sale online.
This is why I take years to get anything done. Those completions I listed above were just put off for months and years! Except when I actually just got it all sorted, it was done in a couple of hours. WTF? Definitely a wake up call.
Meanwhile, Tones has been watching various videos on Quantum Mechanics with his eyes closed. Haha. I love it. Every time he has a hard time understanding something, he closes his eyes. That’s when you know he’s REALLY concentrating.
Declaring that I will sleep earlier hasn’t worked. We’re still getting to bed at 1.30am and the long weekend made it worse. It seems with nothing to do the next day, Tony and I don’t care if we’re up until 4am surfing the net or playing games. We’ve been doing this for years and have proven that old habits die hard.
Rome hasn’t helped either. I suppose he’s used to sleeping late too. Last night we attempted to get to bed early but he refused to get with the program and wouldn’t go into his litter to be carried into his hutch to go to bed. The result was, instead of getting to bed at 11pm, we got to bed at 12.30am.
My yearly yoga membership has expired too and after collating feedback from people on FB, the consensus was to “Use a Class Pass”. So that’s what I’m going to do. I also managed to do a tripod headstand in my one yoga class a week, this week and lifted my knees off of my arms! I never managed to straighten my legs or body and collapsed shortly after lifting my legs but it was progress!
Having failed on my sleeping goals, I immersed myself in watching health and nutrition documentaries to remind myself to stay healthy and the result from that is that I am on smoothies for 2 meals a day, since Tuesday.
We’ve had smoothies for breakfast every single day for the last 4-5 years now, can’t remember when it started but it’s about that. Now I’m going to have smoothies for lunch too. It’s not for weightloss. God knows I’ve lost no weight by drinking smoothies every morning.
Besides, I leave the morning smoothies to Tones to make and all he puts in there is 1 banana each plus superfoods and that’s it. Sometimes an avocado, sometimes berries.
Starting today I’m making my own breakfast smoothies and having lunch time smoothies specifically to ensure I eat more fruit and vegetables, equivalent of the min 5-a-day (or more) requirement.
Getting to sleep early is still on the cards. Perhaps reducing my screen time activities, increasing physical work via cleaning and eating more vegetables will actually help. We have yet to see the results of this new experiment.
Apart from life chugging along like it ain’t no thang and all the tweaks I’ve been able to make as each week goes by, there isn’t anything to report in this arena this week. We continue to meditate every day.
I’ve noticed that nothing has sent me off the rails in either positive or negative directions lately. I’ve been pretty even keel for a while which is amazing!
Even my annoyance at Rome chewing wires last week was nothing more than wanting to whinge which was gone as soon as I found a replacement wire the next day. So emotionally, I think it’s very safe to say I’ve made a massive improvement from times gone by!
I sought and I found. After what felt like hours and hours of research, I managed to find an app I could use for managing our finances.
Coincidentally (or is it..?) I found it just in time for the start of the new Financial Year, UK. We’re now using Mobills for our personal expense recording and budgeting. Can’t say much about it because I only just downloaded it 2 nights ago but so far so good. All of April’s expenses have now been recorded on it. This new financial year is looking more organised!
That’s the “summary”. Tones suggested last week I split this into 2 blogs. If my blogs continue to be this long, it’s looking more and more like that’s what I need to do!
See you next week x